Well, it happened again. A sports injury. First my neck injury from baseball, and now the Severely Strained Quad in soccer. The baseball injury was much better because I could walk easily, it was just a bad bruise, and I could still play sports a few days later.
However, this soccer injury is a nightmare, not the injury itself, but what it entails. I had to use crutches from Sunday-Friday, which was really annoying. They rubbed against my side and gave me rashes. Also, I felt really slow and incapable.
And that week was just really boring. I couldn’t stand or participate in any activities after or during school. So all I could basically do was crutch around and sit, and be bored. No sports, no after school stuff. Boring with a capital B.
Anyway, you are probably thinking, “Well what happened?” I am getting there. I was playing in my soccer game, and I caught the ball, playing my normal position: goalie. I decided to punt it so as I struck the ball, I felt a huge searing pain, as if my thigh had torn in half. It was horrible pain, and I won’t forget it.
I knew immediately something was really wrong, so I yelled to my coach, to let him know, then fell to the ground. I tried to get up but it started to hurt like crazy, so I fell back down and started banging on the ground, writhing in pain.
Finally, the ambulance came and I went to the ER. By then, the pain had gone down, but I hadn’t moved it yet, so I was kind of scared to see how bad it was. In the X-ray room, I got a little hint. I was instructed to “skootch” over to the X-ray table from my bed, and I literally couldn’t move my leg without a bad searing pain.
I was not happy. I got the crutches and medicine and we went home. The next week was rough as I already discussed, but it definitely got better. I have no crutches and I can walk fine.
But, I can’t run, like at all. I did have a catch with my friend Avery yesterday, and I could throw the ball a good distance with little to no pain. But, in game situations I might have to jerk it certain ways or make harder throws, and that will hurt, badly.
See, I don’t really know what to do now. I don’t want to re-injure my quad, because that would be horrible. I am kind of scared now to kick a soccer ball with full force, with this memory in my head.
There are certain things I can do, and certain things I can’t. I desperately want to feel no pain, and be able to go all out in all of my sports. Most people are expecting me back really soon, and I have high hopes. But, I am NOT optimistic. I feel like this needs more time to heal, and I need more time to mentally heal.
I need more time to get this out of my head, and play sports with full intensity, not holding back because of this injury. I want to get back this week, and most people think I will, but most people also don’t have the pain I do. I wish I could have some doctor give me an MRI or something that can look at my muscles in my quad and see the problem.
Because, I know for a fact that I won’t be back in sports for at least another week, unfortunately. There is a problem, and although I can do some things, I can’t run, which is applied in all sports. And any severe bending or jerking of my quad hurts.
I have tried to run a few times since then, to try to speed up the recovery. However, I am holding back when I run, afraid, and I feel awkward, lopsided when I run now. I can’t run fast at all, and when I try to push it I fall because it hurts.
It’s bad timing because my baseball team has two other kids who have injuries, one sprained wrist, and one fractured wrist. Hopefully I will be able to get back on the diamond, soccer field, and hoops court soon!